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Saturday, July 08, 2006

~I think I'm fine~

I spent the whole of fri morning completing the introduction and discussion sections of my lab report on interhemispheric transfer. All these biology stuff is really difficult to understand coz the terms are so technical. Given my procrastination and lack of focus I've thrown away 5.5% of 10% of what's the assignment's worth for late work (as usual). But seriously writing 1500 words for 10% is really crazy. The good news, it's finally over. Reached school around 930am to submit both lab reports.

Went home after that and I got a phone call from a rare guest. Well, it's Z's ex and she's also my ex's best friend cum my friend. And I suspected she called me coz she thought I was in a relationship with Z. Coz I met one of her friend and casually mentioned that I kept in contact with Z only. And she actually asked me who I kept in touch with, asking about her friend and den my ex, but thank goodness I didn't have to talk about Z. Anyway, I did feel awkward coz before Z and her broke up I always thought they make a cute couple. But now when Z's attention has turned to me, I didn't expect it. Besides I have a dating rule which says no boyfriends who are friends of exes. Call me conservative or what but I don't want to face the situation where I see the person I used to be close with and his friend even though the relationship is gone. So basically, Z and I are impossible. And I don't know why I feel like I sort of betray her even though I didn't do anything to let Z have the wrong idea. She wanted to meet up for coffee but being sleep deprived, I told her that next week would be a better idea.

Supposed to take a walk with Sheela at East Coast Park, but I suppose the gal was really tired with her school stuff and overslept as usual so I went to Jimmy's house at Hougang where Cynthia helped me to rebond my hair from 2230-0200 this morning. Paid her $70 and I think it's quite ok but the process was really dull. I suppose she had a much harder time than me coz I could see her fatigue and she had to stand most of the time. But due to my shoulder hair length, my hair doesn't look very poker straight :( . I'm still wondering if I should go ahead with highlighting ash for my hair or red as what Cynthia has suggested which would complement my black hair base better. Or maybe save my money and go pluck my eyebrows and buy blusher which I'm running out of. Z came over too and spent the time watching TV while my hair was done.

Around 3 plus Daryl and Val (who's married and also know all the people mentioned above) came and the 6 of us went the kopitiam to talk. Halfway 2 girls who dressed very sexily in short skirts walked past and of coz Jimmy and Daryl turned to look at them. And it became a debate of why it's wrong for guys with gfs or wives to look at other women for the girls and the guys defending themselves by saying that looking isn't a sin. Z and I nearly died laughing while the 2 couples were debating.

Around 515 Z and I walked around 20 min to his home bus stop for me to take the bus to Tampines interchange. Felt a bit guilty coz the guy had a headache and he waited with me till the bus came.

I feel numb today, or should I use the word neutral to describe what I'm feeling? Not happy or sad. If I get better soon, I probably don't have to take the medication for 3 months. Just finish this course and get on with my life again.

PS Anyway, gal, at the beginning of my previous post, I wasn't referring to you, i think you know who I was talking about. Please don't get mistaken. I'm sorry if you misunderstood.

On Pointe @)~~

10:53 AM