Yesterday met Z to go to the Guanyin temple to pray at Bugis around 445pm. After that he had dinner at the food court at Parco Bugis. We didn't know what to do after walking around aimlessly so I suggested going Orchard. So we took the train from Bugis to Somerset and this time he did the holding hand thing again. So for everytime he tried that I whacked him really hard until I think he has bruises all over his arms or back. I decided I'd have dinner at Yoshinoya at Cineleisure and I wanted to catch C.R.A.Z.Y the movie but he didn't so we took bus 14 to the end which was Clementi bus interchange and walked around. After that, we took the bus to my home where I had a Cookies and Cream ice cream. Z's not my bf but he has been paying for all the expenses whenever we go out. To date i think I owe him like $80. I don't want to be obliged to be his gf just coz he pays for my stuff. I wish the one who's treating me well is someone else but nvm I guess we never get what we want in life.
Still down with the cold and didn't go for ballet class 2 days in a row. Have been getting headaches and bodyache these few days. Woke up around 945pm today. I'm still feeling numb. Even when I think of any events which should trigger my emotions I can't feel anymore. Even seeing his msn nick that he only wants her despite being rejected, I no longer feel a tinge of jealousy or sadness. I don't even know if I still love him coz I can't feel a thing for him any longer. Maybe he has hurt me too deep that I choose to shut my feelings for him. Maybe I've recovered. Maybe I've changed. I don't know.
