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Thursday, August 17, 2006

~Fluctuations~

Dunno whether it's good luck to win in contests but never win Toto or 4D. Give me a choice I'd rather win in lottery. I prefer cold hard cash so I can splash it on clothes especially my dream Burberry's checked short skirt and preferably a trenchcoat too. Opened a letter today and I won some Kotex hamper. Just last week went to collect my Dior Addict Hamper, a topical cream for scars and some colour treatment shampoo range. But good la, everytime I'm missing something I'll win something I need. Like the hair straightener, cleansers (Dior, Garnier whitening and Fancl), lipgloss and perfume.

Woke up late today and reached school at 1120 for Organisational Behavior. Panama was quite pissed at me. He asked if I was in the wrong class coz this is like the 3rd lecture and I only turned up for my 1st lesson. But looks like gonna be damn busy. There are 2 mid-term tests, presentation and essay for the business modules. Be getting the textbook for this subject tomorrow. The edition I saw at the 2nd hand book store today is 1 edition behind but I think it's better than nothing.

Ballet class was not too great today when Ms Ho commented that my musicality needed work. My turns are either too fast or slow. Bo bian I'm tone deaf. Actually it's more of if I'm concentrating on my steps I don't hear the music. I can't focus on more than 1 thing at a time. That's why I'm not a multi-tasker. I can't talk on the phone and watch tv or listen to music and study. I'm thinking of taking violin lessons starting next mth. I'll probably start from grade 1. It has been my interest since young. Maybe it'll help in my dancing too.

Keep feeling faint from the starvation thing. Day 2 is not too bad, lost 2 kg. I gonna hang in there for another 6 kg loss. I thought I wouldn't have the strength to dance yesterday and today but i surprised myself being more energetic and lighter on my pointework. The only drawback is when I'm not dancing I'm extremely exhausted. My motivation is being able to fit into these 2 black dresses which I bought last Sat. One of it is plain below knee length while the other is short, has a sequinned upper top and an asymmetrical hem. The latter is rather showy like those sexy dresses they wear for dancing in tango. Hope I will look stunning in them with my new figure.

Yesterday, caught The Beat That my Heart Skipped with Hansel. Kinda inspired by Thomas, the punk in the show who was into piano. The lead was rather cute and he has a droolworthy body. Just love and admire people who are inclined to the arts. They tend to be introspective, sensitive and creative souls. Catching a movie at the Picturehouse sucks coz the seats were so hard and terrible. The extremely uncomfortable seats are to deter people from dozing off while catching an arthouse film is it?

Suddenly I feel like I need to be more hardworking in my studies. Need something to focus on so that my mind doesn't wander and obsess over ridiculous thoughts. But my attention span is always short, can't concentrate on listening to the lectures. Forever daydreaming. I wish I can go into my fantasy world so I'll be cheerful always without a care for this world.

On Pointe @)~~
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