There is no finishing line to perfection <33

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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

~7 days to my big day~

I won 2 movie tix to The Departed from Maxim magazine.. Luckily I haven't watched it yet.. In addition to Darling's free movie voucher I don't have to pay for my movies! Wonder why I dread the days leading to my bday.. I've given up wishing for things that will never come true..

At least I thgt it would be better if I did something for myself.. After self-imposing a diet from Sunday, I've managed to lose 2.2kg.. I hope I can fit into the black dress Ive bought on Sunday coz darling is celebrating an early birthday wif me and I wanna look pretty for him and myself. It has been really difficult to keep away from all the temptation when I see Ma's food.. But I tell myself that everything will pay off on Sun if I am disciplined. And I'll be able to wear my calf-high boots and short skirts soon.. Haven't tried not eating for more than 4 days but this time I can push myself to do it! If I wanna be thin again, 7 days is nothing compared to being fat and agonising for months. I don't have much energy now to go out. My joints are aching and I feel weak..But it'll all be worth it..

Nowadays I feel as if I'm not doing anything productive at all. I'm just wasting away watching TV from Mon-Fri. I don't mind not having a life. I'd rather lose myself in the lives of others instead of looking at mine which doesn't hold any meaning nor hope. I wonder why I feel this heaviness in my heart.. It hurts.. Is it coz I miss my ballet class? But they'll be doing rehearsal till Dec 19 and by then I 'll have stopped dancing for 2 mths plus.. I guess this is d longest time I've stopped dancing.. My dancing will get worse again when I go back.. the last break was 1 mth 2 yrs ago and my turns are badly affected,, Now I shudder to think what else will be affected this time? My flexibility, extensions and jumps most probably..

I'm getting stressed out over my last 4 modules.. Seems like I might have some trouble clearing these.. I really don't wanna repeat any of them.. It's really stupid to be held back for some electives.. Maybe all these are affecting my mood..

Why am I unhappy? Is it that difficult to be happy?

On Pointe @)~~

12:28 AM

The Ballerina

Snow Lam
7 Nov 83 (30)
Scorpio
1.68m, 52.5 kg

Wishing Upon A Star

Pass Advanced 2 2014 ballet exam
Pass BodyBalance Initial Module Training
~~New demipointe ballet shoes~~
~~New Gaynor Minden pointe shoes~~
Reach 50 kg
Earn $3000 a month
~~Chloe Eau de Parfum 75 ml~~
Burberry bag or mini skirt
Class 2B licence
Learn how to play the violin
Japanese and French Language classes
To have a Psychology doctorate

Poison

broken promises
deceit
malicious gossip
hypocrisy
being unhappy
falling sick

Obsessions

Finding ways to stop worrying
ballet and dancing
singing
movies
desserts
reading
shopping
the arts
Abnormal and Social Psycholgy
World History esp WW II
Physics
Qoo, Hello Kitty, Playboy bunny, Grover, Felix the Cat, sheep, bunnies
Vintage
Oasis
Linkin Park
Madonna
Andy Lau
Francis Ng
Jet Li
Nicholas Tse
Daniel Wu
Vivian Hsu
Charlie Young
Charlene Choi
Maggie Cheung
Kim Jeong Hoon
Justin Timberlake
Josh Hartnett
Christian Bale
Keenu Reeves
Ben Affleck
Tobey Mcguire
Kirsten Dunst
Christina Ricci
Rose McGowan
Nicole Kidman
people who care

Mime

Corp de Ballet

jOeY
eLfIe
mInGjI
dAnIeL
jAcKsOn
wEe Wu
dAvId
fLoYd
zIjIaN
mEpH
dEsMoNd
jIe LoNg
tOmMy
eNjElYn
cHrIsTiNe
sTePhAnIe
pHoEbE
gWeNdOlYn
mY oLd BlOg

Choreography

LiNkS tO sTuFf In Sg
fRiEnDsTeR
fAcEbOoK
aRtY fARtY eVeNtS
dAnCe ReLaTeD sTuFf
wHeN u NeEd A rIdE
wHeN u WaNnA fInD a WaY
cAtHaY mOvIeS
gV mOvIeS
sHaW mOvIeS
wE mOvIeS
fIlMgArDe

Music

Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt

Repertoire

June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
May 2009
July 2009
September 2009
December 2011

Credits

DESIGNER : KAILENG
Inspiration: purplekisses