There is no finishing line to perfection <33

Sunday, October 19, 2008

~Dexter my new series love

The evil within me cannot be tamed. It's a raging fire which threatens to consume everything in its path. There is a perverse pleasure in indulging in my addiction: the compelling desire to break free from all shackles of conventional ways of living and ethics. To survive, I have to keep on wearing this mask, for when it comes off the people whom I care for and love will not be able to accept me for who I truly am. The secrets weighing heavily on me can be shared with only the victims who have suffered under my true nature. Confidante? The one who embraces me for who I truly am is a threat to my very survival. I do not feel safe nor in control when she sees me me beneath the thick mask. I do not feel for her yet there is a strange comfort in being able to connect to someone who is like you. I am certain the feelings I have for people I care about are genuine. I cannot be a bad person can I? When I fulfil my duties and roles as loving boyfriend and cooperative coworker? Protecting them from the truth which wll ruin their notions of trust in humanity. Who am I? I am a monster.
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My career personality test (seems like I'm a nightmare employee)

At a Glance
• Does not like too many work demands, prefers to work at own pace.
• Takes time over tasks, sees deadlines as flexible.
• Does not strive to complete tasks, prepared to leave work unfinished.Expresses emotions and needs attention. Tends to be concerned with own opinions and feelings.
• Empathetic, understanding, helpful and supportive.
• Quiet and reserved, prefers own company.
• Concerned with prestige, recognition, rank and reputation.
• Sees people as nice and friendly, not comfortable to wheel and deal.
• A good supporter of others.
• Likes intellectual discussions, likes to explore ideas.
• Needs clear and thorough instructions, slow to act when uncertain.

While at Work
Putting in a lot of effort to meet the demands of work is not Ms Lam's preference. She does not like to rush around doing things and may feel demotivated if work constantly encroaches on her personal life. Although she does not like excessive work demands, Ms Lam may still be prepared to put in extra effort if it is on a short term basis.Time is not a major priority for Ms Lam. She is probably often late for appointments and may keep people waiting. She sees deadlines as flexible and takes her time to do things. She is not time-conscious when planning or organizing activities. Ms Lam may feel stressed and demotivated when she is rushed, and may not deliver results on time.Ms Lam initiates plans and ideas easily but may not persist with the tasks until completion. She is prepared to leave tasks unfinished; hence she may prefer short-term assignments as she is more likely to complete these tasks. She may lose interest and focus when working on long term assignments.Ms Lam is able to produce work that is moderately high in quality but she may at times be careless.Ms Lam is an emotional person. She finds it difficult to conceal her feelings. She is likely to seek attention from others. Ms Lam is passionate, romantic and warm, and needs to be with people. As her emotional needs are high, she is often the 'taker' in a relationship. She tends to make decisions based on her own feelings and opinions.Ms Lam is sympathetic and considerate towards others. She is also likely to be tolerant, understanding and forgiving. Ms Lam lends support and offers help readily. She often lends a listening ear to others and is concerned about their welfare. She is also charitable.Being a shy, quiet and reserved person, Ms Lam prefers her own company and feels awkward when meeting people for the first time. In social gatherings, she tends to stay in the background.Ms Lam selectively forms strong bonds with people although these bonds may not be very deep.Ms Lam is moderately serious about her responsibilities and selectively takes ownership of her work.Ms Lam is concerned with position and status. She cares about how people view her. Prestige, quality, rank and reputation are important to her. She is likely to be brand-conscious and would attach significance to status symbols. She takes pride in her appearance.Ms Lam sees people as friendly, reliable and honest. She is trusting and believes what people say. She tends to be unsuspecting of people.s behaviour and motives. She is uncomfortable when she has to wheel and deal.A good supporter to the people around her, Ms Lam does not desire to lead or influence people. She is uncomfortable taking charge and does not feel the thrill of challenge in leading others. She prefers to responds rather than initiate. She looks to others to provide direction and does not naturally want to persuade or motivate others to take a certain course of action.Intellectually inquisitive and extremely interested in knowledge acquisition, Ms Lam enjoys discussing hypothetical or theoretical issues. She is conceptual and likes to explore abstract ideas. Ms Lam is a thinker, creative and inventive of ideas. She enjoys reading and is happiest sourcing for new ideas and information.Ms Lam puts in effort to plan ahead some of the times. She may at times not be as detailed in her planning.

On Pointe @)~~

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